Today I went to the LA County fair with my parents. This would have been fine except for the fact that I'm 22, not 12. My parents don't seem to understand why I think this is ridiculous, but I know there is no way that at 22 they would have been going to the County fair with their parents. They see that it's hard for me to be at home with no friends, but they don't see that it's kind of lame for us to still have family outings.

Because I don't really have friends at home anymore, I guess it's good that I'm going to New York. I'm frustrated, however, by people's inability to make plans. I'm not sure it's an inability, really, or that he just doesn't care. I'm tired of having to always initiate the conversation. I asked him to let me know when he was available, so the ball is in his court. I know that if I want to make it happen I should just say, "Hey, what day are you available?" but I really don't want to be that girl. In all of my relationships (platonic or otherwise) I feel that both parties have to put in the effort. I inititated, now you must follow-up. It just feels like he doesn't want to see me, which is fine, I just wish he would come out and say it. Perhaps I'm being paranoid. Honestly, though, this is a problem I face a lot and could also explain why I don't see (m)any of my friends from high school. I do have to plan out this trip, though, so I'm going to have to deal with it tomorrow. It also looks like not-so-great weather. I want fall weather so I can look cute!